03 August 2018
Deep inside my painting work, I find that my feminine side is expressed to the fullest. Through the painting process I am dancing in feminine. This is a very joyful place of experiencing integration, collaboration and inclusion with all there is.
I have found that this place inside, has been suppressed by my more masculine side. My focus has been, how can I gain, what is useful, what is not, what can I conquer? My life has been dominated by being on a conquest to survive. I believe this has been driven by a great fear of brining feminine into my life. A fearful place that has roots in the tiniest atoms I consist of, and the history they are build on. A history of violence against the feminine. An origin my building blocks do not forget and the origin I cannot remember with my minds thinking, thus unconsciously creating a need to survive.
Finding my way back to the femininity in working with paint, creates a space of flowering, relaxing, and living. I understand that this femininity unfolding, is making a shift inside and around me. When I paint, I celebrate the feminine and the masculine becomes less dominant. I feel a greater balance, I feel more complete. I experience fearlessness.
Nurturing the feminine and being conscious about the masculine aspect, shows me that life is full of meaning. I need to survive to experience my flowering. I need to bloom to wither and become the soil, from where I again will take root and flower.
My mission is, to nurture that place in you as well.